Monday, January 23, 2012
Journaling in Time of Need
These past couple weeks have been tough for me. It had become quite apparent that the preschool my 4 y.o. daughter was attending (montessori) wasn't panning out. She is high spirited and her teachers kept writing me notes about another "incident" that was happening. Without going into all the details that only bring up resentments, the breaking point occurred last Tuesday when I was notified that Rita Clare was being "terminated" from school for failure to progress in the direction she needed to be going. I have until the end of the month to set a new plan up in motion.
While she's in school, I have been using these couple hours to work from home without the struggle of managing kids in the background. During this time frame, my 2 year old son is napping. It has been really nice to have this carved out time in the middle of the day. Now what??
I've been dappling in homeschooling, joining a gym with child care, hiring a babysitter to consistently help out, other child care centers that will take kids after a semester has begun, etc. I don't have everything figured out just yet, but I'm starting to feel a plan emerging.
During my many panicky moments, I have come back to my journal. It is a space I can say anything and let it all out. I can come up with lofty goals and feel a sense of direction. It's a spiritual space, much like prayer or meditation. It's always my hope that I will continue to journal regularly. But usually I come to it when I'm overwhelmed and need to purge my emotions. It's funny to read through my past journal entries as they are often similar in their theme and take me back to certain events.
Do you journal? How has it impacted you?
Working on peace,
Jen Starks, Owner www.ecologicalbabies.com firstname.lastname@example.org 574.275.1235